THY FAITH BE DEAD.

BACK TO SKOOL

2008-09-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

Ok University shit life happening in approximately 3 days' time. Please go to: vicktakessheff.livejournal.com for updates. This blog shall be temporarily suspended.

HAPPY FIRST YEAR

2008-09-19T13:17:00.000-07:00

Ok went clubbing last night after such a long time. But it was pretty fun ah, cause the old school clubbers were there; Halim, Jo, Ammar, Kiran + girlfriend Geraldine, Darryl, the Austin illusion, and of course Kj and I ah. MOS, walao damn quiet when we entered arounf 1030pm, some trannies came in too. Quite hot, but they sound damn bad. I know cause I heard them speak in the Ladies', taking Marily Monroe-esque pictures with her trenchcoat dress open to expose her bra while standing at the fan blowing up her skirt haha damn funny. Ok played some number game thing with Ammar and Jo and KJ, at the end of the day don't need to guess who first to collapse ah right not Jo. When I come back from UK this Dec must go chiong again, see whether my stamina got improve not. I supposed to bring back some weed for Ammar and Kiran too.

Ok but today is HAPPY FIRST YEAR WITH KJ ah hahaha damn happy must smile like an idiot for the whole of today :)

2008-09-14T10:29:00.000-07:00

Ok ah mixed feelings now. Just met lovey and carried lanterns and lighted multiple candles and watched the enormously round moon and watched him set a shot of pure vodka of fire and downed it and made hearts and a cube with candle wax. Happy.In another 7 odd hours my good friend Sheena banana will be flying off to UK, which reminds me mine is this Saturday. Fuck. Damn not looking forward to it ah. Sad.

OK AH UPDATE

2008-09-12T11:23:00.000-07:00

Ok ah these few days been running around, quite shiok, better than rotting at home. Wednesday attended Teck Wee the BFF's Bravo Coy. POP with Sharyl, yay! Damn suave ah the whole parade, makes me want to go join the army too. He damn smelly also, like the kind of sweat mix with something sour multiply by 1000000x ah. NAH BEH. Then dinner at McDonalds, talk cock after not seeing these 2 idiots for almost dunno how many months. Then walk Sharyl home, then cause we damn bo liao, Teck and I confirm must go find something damn retarded to do. So go Changi Village to see bapok lor. Ok ah actually my idea. Not much business or action, but we managed to find this fat man and this bapok couple who hooked up, and we saw the arrival of this huge but rather eerie ship coming into shore.

Then today when I just woke up at around 1 plus, got a miss call from James, another asshole I haven't seen in eons. So go meet lor, at Tampines. Walked around DAMN aimlessly, while waiting for Teck to come down. Hehehehe with those 2 it's always a major bastard session ah. Ok ah then after that when Teck left we met Shep, my favourite ang moh. Then of course go Jame's condo slack and rot ah. Then lovey arrived. Talked abit more cock and camwhore ABIT. Then go Sheena's place rot again. Got more idiots that haven't met in a long long time ah. Winsor the botak guy who looks like a perverted monk, Red the Red, Sheena my favourite indian, and Seah Lien, my favourite indian's friend. Oh then the Malaysian girl Lingna and Serena came also. Not bad ah sit at the dining table talk cock sing song until like 1am, then take Winsor's godparent's car zoom home lor.

Aiyah dunchwant blog anymore, tomorrow morning going zoo with lovey YAYYYYYYYYY.

FOR VIDEOS ON TECK'S POP AND RANDOM SNAPSHOTS OF THE GATHERINGS, GO FACEBOOK AH.

NIGHT OUT @ ARAB STREET

2008-09-09T10:04:00.000-07:00

Today, night out with my malay BFF, like finally. I've missed this pubs-hair woman. Dinner-ed at Manhattan Fish Market, which was seriously nothing fancy, Fish & Co. alot better. But the food was just the appetiser, the main dish was, of course Adibah's (and her boobies) company. Started talking about work (gawd we are soooooo grown up), boobs and minimizers (Adi they still look huge ah), getting confused about who Matthew Chua and Marcus Lee were, and like alot of other random shit. And she gave me this superbly awesome card, decorated with The Queen and Ginger Spice!

Me: Eh so where you going now?
Adi: Hooommmmeee. I've got work tomorrow. I've got responsibilities!
Me: Oh.
Adi: You?
Me: Home lor. Since you going home too.

*At MRT Station*
Adi: Want to go sheesha? I suddenly don't feel like going home.
Me: SURE.

And so we ended up at Arab Street. OMG SO NOSTALGIC. That area was where I used to work at, like at Gateway. Tsk. Strawberry sheesha, alot better than vanilla the other time, long long time ago. More catching up, this time with Adi bitching about her work, us talking bout relationships (I know so girl), and alot of random shit talk. Awesome.

*****MORE PICTURES IN FACEBOOK*****

We've made a pinky promise to go club and get drunk when I'm back from UK this December. I love you Adibah.

ETA @ 2:48AM, 100908 : Walao eh. Photobucket and Facebook taking fucking long to upload the photos ah. I must go complain. Cause I Singaporean.

WHAT'S IN MY MAKEUP BAG?

2008-09-05T05:19:00.001-07:00

Makeup Bag - Givenchy; FOC from the counters.
Oil Blotters - Clean & Clear, my face oils easily.
Face Pressed Powder - Silkygirl, urgent last minute buy; it's surprisingly good for an OTC brand.
Plaster - Hansaplast; Yew Tee has this place that sells a box of 100for S$3.30!
Blusher Brush -The Body Shop.
Blusher -MAC; in Dame. I love it, so pink and smooth.
Liquid Eyeliner - The Body Shop. I swear by this.
Lip Brush - Anna Sui; FOC from the counters.
Lip Balm - Clinique; in Raspberry. I swear by this too.
Tweezer - Guardian. For last minute moustache hair and eyebrow tweezing.
Perfume samplers - Givenchy Very Irresistable and Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Heaven. FOC from the counter and magazine.
Mini Shaver - Basic Beauty. For too much unsightly facial hair.
Lip Gloss - Bourjois in Rose Arctic. Ok only la. But smells nice.
Lip Stick - Chanel Rouge Allure in Libertine. My favourite lippie thus far. It's the click click one.

By now you should know I'm really bored. And I refuse to start packing for my UK trip. I need to go back to work asap. I miss the addiction.

MOOD: ELATED

2008-09-01T06:52:00.000-07:00

FROM TODAY ONWARDS I'M A USELESS BUMMER CONTRIBUTING NOTHING TO THE NATION'S ECONOMY!!!!

AND HELLO MARC JACOBS! AND A SHITLOAD OF COSMETICS!
NEXT UP... A BCBG MAXAZRIA OR MIU MIU!

PICTURE ORGASM TO BE UPLOADED SOON.

NYX COSMETICS

2008-08-26T06:27:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'm in no way related to NYX COSMETICS, nor and I trying to do MLM here. But this deal is too good to be true, and I 'm darn happy with my loot of 5 lipsticks, which by the way arrived today.

This is my first time trying NYX products, as I'm a sucker for higher-end brand cosmetics such as Givenchy and Anna Sui, and sometimes if I have the extra cash, Chanel. Don't blame me, it's heredited from my mom, who is a sucker for the likes of Clinique and Clarins, especially. We are afraid weird branded cosmetics will leave us with rashes and red marks all over our faces!

I bought my NYX products through a spree, which was ordering from a US boutique site. The current offer was USD 0.99 for a NYX ROUND LIPSTICK. Us being Singaporeans, who wouldn't be tempted to check out the offer? I know I couldn't resist. In the end, I ended up ordering 5 different shades of the lipstick. Being skeptical, I was unsure how the colour and texture would turn out.

When I got back from work today, I was super excited to see my parcel lying on the dining table. (BTW, they ship really fast! Items arrived in about 10 days after ordering.) I ripped open the parcel and immediately tested the products. I was super happy. The colour was perfect, matched the colour swatch on the site, the texture was super creamy and smooth, and it was not super glossy or matte, it was just right. The scent, smelt almost akin to that of the Givenchy lipsticks! And did I mention I found the exact shade I've been hunting high and low?! It's called ROSE.

If you are wondering how the lipsticks look like, here's a sample picture from a site:-

It's a simple black tube with the signature NYX logo, colour swatch at the bottom of the tube and colour label on the top of the cap. For comparison, it looks like the Rouge Bunny Rouge (popular UK cosmetic brand)lipstick. Sure, it's not as fancy as the Anna Sui ones, but these NYX lipsticks sure make me feel super happy.

I paid USD0.99 X 1.43 (exchange rate) + $1.30 (international shipping and local mail) = S$2.72 per tube! Compared to the pricey S$41 per tube Givenchys and $39-ners Anna Suis, I'm a happy and contented girl :) I just ordered 2 of NYX's Round lipglosses!

EH DAR DAR I LOVE YOU

2008-08-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

I JUST WANT TO SAY I LOVE MY DAR DAR ALOT
CAUSE EVEN THOUGH HE IS DAMN TIRED
FROM SATURDAY'S DUTY AND RUNNING AROUND HERE AND THERE
HE STILL CAME (LIKE JUST ONLY AT 10:15PM) TO MY DOORSTEP JUST CAUSE I SAID I HAD A CRAVING FOR CHOCOLATES EARLIER IN THE DAY. WALAO THIS KIND OF BOYFRIEND WHERE TO FIND, SOMEMORE HE AH BENG ONE.

DAR DAR IF YOU READING THIS I WANT TO SAY SORRY YOU HAD TO LEAVE SO SOON, BUT I LOVE YOU LOADS AH.
OK MUST STOP HERE, IT'S ON THE BRINK OF SPILLING INTO THE AH LIAN MUSHY POST LIAOZ WORXZXZXZXZX. TWIST! I MEAN PEACE, OUT.

BACK TO ARMY DAZE.

A LITTLE PIECE OH HEAVEN

2008-08-22T02:27:00.000-07:00

THE UNIVERSITY OF SHEFFIELD... ...

2008-08-19T02:29:00.001-07:00

I wonder if we have this too.

THIS IS HOW TO SMILE

2008-08-17T19:35:00.000-07:00

I'm a happy bloke.

Boyfriend just called from camp, while he was shitting. Whatever he still called :)

Email response from the HR personnel:

"Vickie,
Further to my email of 27 June 2008, you now have a balance of 3-days accrued leave which will be paid to you together with your last pay cheque on your last day of work.

Base on last day of employment/work = 29 Aug 2008
Accrued Leave Y2008 = 14/12 x 6 = 7
Leave taken = 4-days
Bal accrued leave = 3-days"

And I still have another 3 days worth of leave, pro-rated duh. If I don't clear them, I will get paid. That's an additional $180++ on top of my $1.9k pay. NOW I can contemplate getting that new LANVIN and MOSCHINO fragrance, even after clearing all my outstnadiing debts.

:)

2008-08-04T19:39:00.000-07:00

TSK.
I'm sick again, and I sound like a fucking tranny.
Now I want my cuddles.

*mega pouting powers*

MY SUGAR IS IN COUGAR!

2008-08-03T20:40:00.000-07:00

Cougar Company sucks, lor. They let him out on a Saturday afternoon, not early, and then they take him back on Sunday evening, easrly at 6;25 fucking pm. How to enjoy? SAF sucks. Either that or the planner person just doesn't know how to plan. Asshole. I think he got no girlfriend one. I want my boyfriend back; just so we can lie on his relatively new IKEA bed, cuddle under the blanket, and then he can hold my head and sleep :) But nah beh, the SAF must take him back lor.

ETA: And 987 FM very smart, must play emo song now. David Cook's Always Be My Baby. And it's raining outside now lor. You know raining days very important one?! Cause when rain, then very nice to sleep, then dar dar's hobby is sleeping right? Then when he sleep I can cuddle with him also right?! I think now if I go Russia, I sure kena confinement or kena banished lor, hor Sheena?

I ISH UNHAPPY GERRRR. YOU KNOW?!

EVEN THOUGH HE'S 28461 MILES AND A FERRY RIDE AWAY;

2008-07-31T00:32:00.000-07:00

And burnt like kaya toast on charcoal;
and doesn't like to go shopping with me;
and sleeps alot;
you tell me how not to melt;
when you are chionging out some last minute trash for your last minute boss;
and then you get this super diabetic sms:

"Dar dar! I got a little time now! Hahaha! So i shall sms you and say I love you!"

Don't question me about the hahahahahas, he is always happy like that; and I'm cool like that. I love him. Melted.

2008-07-30T18:52:00.000-07:00

I have this sudden "missing" of my suckers!
Like where is Ammar? Max? Halim? Shep my favourite Ang Moh?
NS sucks.

LOVE, SICK

2008-07-29T20:37:00.000-07:00

16 days of anticipation really paid off. Went to the interchange witha heart-shaped tin of no-nut Famous Amos cookies, where I met Inez (who was of course waiting for her darling James la). So excited to see him, but because of some stupid military police rule thing, dar dar was not allowed to be seen holding hands, or hugging or doing mildly intimate stuff with hisa girlfriend. So we had to walk to the other side of Pasir Ris, where his parents and his cute little ah-ma was waiting for us! Only there and then could he hold my hand. Then it was dinner with his family. Headed to this pretty quaint western restaurant in Farmart. Pretty awesome food, but the pungent smell of animal dung? was apphauling. After dinner, it was just a nice gathering at his place and talking nonsense about his BMT.

If you're thinking we went out on a romantic date on the 2nd day, you are terribly wrong. Well, we were supposed to go watch The Dark Knight, but dar dar had a terrible fever and wasn't feeling too good man. Just slept at his place until the evening, where we headed out for dinner with his family again, but this time...with his AH GONG AND AUNTY AND HER FAMILY TOO! Walao damn scary ok. But the food was shiok can, at this kampong-ish place in Sembeawang, what with the chilli crab and roast chicken and hot plate tofu.

And the last day before he goes into camp, what did we do? Yes, sleep in again. Haha. His hobby what. Damn sad to see him pack and dress up in his No.4. Suddenly I had this frown on my face, cause he had to book in at 8.50pm, and it was already 6.20pm. SADDED. Reached Pasir Ris, where we met Inez and James again. Haha James you are chubby. And somehow Inez is gettiing WHITER. Must be the contrast against James la. Anyhoww, dar dar's coming out this Saturday afternoon! Cannot wait to smeel him again, even if it means smelly uniforms and super heated skin from the sun.
whee.

Oh yuh and I'm terribly sick. From yesterday.
Fever of 38degrees with a pounding headace and aching soar throat/cough.
But I just got my paycheque so fuck it.
I'm awesomely happy now.
Yes,call me a money-grabbing bitch ya'll.

IT'S TOUGH BEING EMO

2008-07-24T03:25:00.001-07:00

So apparently, there's going to be this new Russian law that makes it illegal for kids to be emo:
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/26052223.html#cutid1

But with such a shit conversation with Sheena:

[1 day's worth of craving] dardar's says:
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/26052223.html#cutid1

[1 day's worth of craving] dardar's says:
NO SHIT

[1 day's worth of craving] dardar's says:
HAHAHAHAHA

Sheena says:
send austin to russia to be imprisioned

[1 day's worth of craving] dardar's says:
damn funny

I want to break the rule also cannot lor. NB.
HAHAHAHHA

2008-07-23T21:08:00.000-07:00

Finally; she can see him tomorrow;
She will be standing there with his favourite flower of sunflower and a tin of Famous Amos cookies.
And she can barely wait.

HELLO IM BORED AH FUCK

2008-07-22T00:05:00.000-07:00

1. What is your full name?
- Tan LY Vickie

2. Where are you schooling?
- Soon...University of Sheffield baybeh. I is angmohz.

3. Working?
- Yes fuck.

4. What time is it right now?
- 3:09pm.

5. What's the weather at your side?
- Almost sunny.

6. What are you doing?
- Drinking NutriTea Barley and listening to the PCD.

7. Not going out today?
- Maybe. But I is sleepy fuck today.

8. Have you eaten?
- Ya chocolate cream cookies.

9. What currently are you doing in life right now?
- Working, hybernating, missing the boyf.

10. What song are you listening to?
- PCD's When I Grow Up.

11. Do you miss somebody?
- Yes my boyfriend

12. What is he/she to you?
- My love, my soul, my bra, my shoes, my chic-flicks, my everything.

13. Where's your parents?
- Father at work, mother at piano class.

14. Siblings?
- That 23 years old and damn ugly one lor. WOrking at Arul Chew & Partners.

15. Ever watch Newport Harbor?
- Pearl can?

16. Who's your best-friend?
- My best friend is my boyf too. And that Bernice run somewhere I cannot find.

17. How much they mean to you?
- How to evaluate?

18. Where do you wish you want to be right very now?
- Thailand balls. Or Japan.

19. How's your bedroom looked like?
- Yellow walls, brick curtains, piano, single bed, giant Yoshi toy.

20. What's your mood?
- Damn sian.

21. When's the last time you gone shopping?
- Online can count? if not then is bloody long. Like Heidi Klum legs.

22. Ever wanting something new?
- YA OF COURSE *EYES DILATE*

23. What are you looking forward to next?
- This Friday :)

24. Plans for that day?
- Get sunflower, Famous Amos cookies and head down to Pasir Ris.

25. How are you feeling?
- Damn SIAN fuck.

26. Starbucks or CoffeeBean?
- Starbucks.

27. Mcdonalds, KFC or PizzaHut?
- PIYYAHUGS.

28. What's your favourite restaurant?
- Erh. Derno.

29. What's you person's like?
- Erh. Dunno.

30. Does any of your ex boyfriend still loves you?
- Erh.

31. How do you react?
- Erh.

32. Do you ever forked out during dates?
- Yes. Only cause both of us broke fucks.

33. What will you be doing in 3 hours time?
- Erh. Taking the train home.

34. Do you liked somebody?
- No. Love only.

35. List 5 favourite things you love to do:
-drink green tea, the can sugar-filled one
-do stuff to my boyfriend; not just hugs.
-watch FRIENDS reruns
-bitch with my blardy funny collegue
-Contemplate.

36. List 5 favourite person.
- Cannot. Favourite only got 1.

37. Who are they to you?
- Important ones lor.

38. Are you tired?
- Ya balls.

39. What do you think about Britney Spears?
- I think she's cool.

40. What are you thinking right now?
- Why is there no work to do?

41. Does anything bothering you?
- Ya.

42. What do you think about your life?
- I will be filthy rich by 30.

43. Ever got your heart broken?
- SMASHED.

44. Ever you got somebody's heart broken?
- Ya. And managed to salvage back. Thank god.

45. Why is that so?
- Cause I like dulan kia then not happy ah.

46. What do you see in guys/girls these days?
- I always see them in step-geek fake wayfarer glasses and weird tunics leh.

47. What do you think about your opposite sex?
- They are horny fucks.

48. Do you read?
- Yes.

49. Do you blindfold yourself?
- Cannot say.

50. Where do you stay?
- Woodlands.

51. How do you find your stay?
- Awesomeposs. Cause it's near my boy.

52. Who are you expecting right now?
- No one.

53. Anything happened 3 days ago?
- Erh I got pissed drunk on Friday night. Friday is 3 days back right?

54. How do you feel about it?
- DAMN BAD LOR.

55. Are you a bad boy/girl?
-Yes. But Also very good.

56. Ever cheated on somebody?
- No cause I good girl.

57. Are you rich?
- What fuck you talking about sia.

58. Okay seriously, what's your mood right now?
- Damn sian fuck.

59. When's your last tear?
- That day lor when shit happened.

60. What do you crave for right now?
- SLEEP AND MY BOYF.

I HATE PARTIES.

2008-07-20T08:46:00.000-07:00

Suddenly;
the stench of alcohol;
and the image of hippies holding glasses of the liquid;
irks me;
and it's repulsive.
It's vomit-inducing.
Argh.

MARIOCART

2008-07-20T03:15:00.000-07:00

(click for bigger image)

My dear boy,
this will be our car in the near future.
:)

2008-07-20T00:44:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to my boyfriend, who has been in Tekong for the past 9 days, and I miss that skinny ass alot.

Friday night I went out for drinks with my collegues, but at the back of my mind I wished he was with me. Things just don't feel right without him with me.

For now, I shall just keep smelling your IBANEZ tee, once it comes out of the wash. I've been togging it for a few days straight in a row, just so I can smell you :)Cannot wait to see you this Friday evening!

DO A BEER A FEMALE DEER

2008-07-18T00:10:00.000-07:00

Wheeee!
Beer-ed yesterday with my ah lianz after work.
The NEW HARBOUR cafe/bar at Tanjong Pagar.
Awesome Happy Hour deal, $10 for a whole pint of Erdinger. Awesome cool shit gold colour liquid.
But their vodka lime and bourbon coke like shit man.

Okay next Thursday is beer day again with another collegue.
Awesome possum.

YAY :)

2008-07-16T08:35:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!
My brother JUST received his results from the University today, and he has hit the minimum 60% average for his first year! That means he gets the International Student Scholarship again, worth 1000 pounds. Hoorah!!

:)

ORAL FIXATION

2008-07-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

I'm in extreme oral pain.
I have 4 huge ulcers in my mouth, of which I think one of them is a cut near the hind of my mouth. And 2 of the ulcers on the left decided to merge and become 1 hugeass fucking ulcer.

THE FIRST SMS!

2008-07-11T07:59:00.001-07:00

"Dar dar! I got some free time! So sneak a sms! Hahaha! They say my company welfare! Then very slack!"

Yay even though this sms full of broken English, but I LOVE IT.

10 July 2008;
6:06pm.

10 JULY 2008

2008-07-09T23:37:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend enlisted this morning at 8:30am, and I am fucking upset. Not because the government took him away (that's angry), but cause I won't get to see him for 14 fucking full days.

No smell
No "hedgehog"
No "ki-ki"
No hugs
No brainless arguments
No hand to hold.

His mommy and I managed to hold back the waterworks. Good job ladies. Just didn't want him to worry or tear up too man. Shucks I miss him too much already.

ARGH ANGERRRRRRRRR

2008-07-07T20:57:00.000-07:00

I swear I'm damn sick of ALL the office poilitcs, bitching, bullshit and work policies. I will peobably die of political stress, no cause the work load is giving me a heart attack.

And I have to fake a smile everytime I have to entertain someone, listening to their sorry ass stories, looking at some shit pictures, like hey, I also have my own family and my own life man. If I had that much time, shouldn't I be entertaining my own worries and problems instead of listening to your shit?

FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT.
I MUST BELIEVE.

SENSE TOES AH

2008-07-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

Back from Sentosa, too short too short.

But still damn fun. Headed down on the 2nd day only, but but but Eugene and Si Yuan were still there! Ok shitload of stupid games, and penalties, like downing VODKA Pear and mugs after mugs of tap water, and spinning damn fast. Basically, Si Yuan looked like drunk Jesus. And stupid moments caught on video.

Headed back to Harbour Front on Friday morning, then headed straight to dar dar's home to chillaz. AND SLEEEEEEPPPPPPPTTTTTTTT until late afternoon. Then it hit me that OH NO ANOTHER 6 MORE DAYS :(

Ok I'm really too darn lazy to blog anymore man.

i wish i had protected myself from the agony.

2008-06-27T09:30:00.000-07:00

Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche.
Yo la quise, y a veces ella también me quiso.

2008-06-24T02:30:00.000-07:00

My current resolutions, lasting up till midnight, or more:

#1 Take ah lian cheesy neo prints each time I go out with dardar;

#2 Draft a super chio resignation letter, print on pink paper and wipe it with Ammar's pit sweat then submit to my boss; and

#3 Not miss anymore parties, makes me feel weird.

UPDATE

2008-06-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

Albeit sounding super pathetic, Teck Wee is the motivation behind this post. Why? Because he said there's no update on my blog everytime he comes here. TECK WEE THIS POST FOR YOU OK DON'T BE SO UGLY ALREADY. And in all my TP Law & Management glory, I shall post this update in point form, for my convenience, and easy reading for the not-so-smart-people (Read: Sharyl. Heehee.)

#1 I got my confirmation letter on 16th June 2008. NOW THEY FUCKING LOAD ME WITH WORK JUST CAUSE I PERMANENT STAFF. Busy until no time to chew on my sour skittles or daydream lor. Then also cannot go visit ohnotheydidn't. But I see the stupid office suck up bitch hor, she can sit on her chair and never do work and still got the cheek to slowly munch on her cashew nuts. I think she sit so long she grow testicles liao.

#2 I just ordered a whole load of Juicy Couture jewelry, cause it's in pink, gold and has many many bling-bling charms dangling. Very chio lor.

#3 Just yesterday, KJ and I tried calling each other by our names and realised that we can no longer do it. Oh man. Blessing in disguise ok.

#4 I have been on a bottled iced green-tea fetish diet for the pass 2 weeks plus. It's delicious, makes me and my work area smell like jasmine, and I feel healthier, even though they are loaded with sugar most of the time. But still shiok what. Firdauz even said it made his balls lighter hor.

#5 I watched Kung Fu Panda twice this month. Once with KJ (strike off), no Dar Dar, and once with my mommy. Jack Black is still a genius.

#6 Melissa (fellow sufferer at GLC and my lian sista @ work) and I have been given alot of work to do, and we have been churning out alot of vulgarities. New and old; like LPPL and PLP, and much more. Please leave a message after the tone to find out more. *BEEP*

#7 My favourite small boss Aunty Wong Yao Fang kena chicken-pox. Sian 1/2. Now office is quiet one. No one to go explore new food places along Liang Seah Street.

#8 TECK WEE I THINK YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE YOUR BROTHER AT ALL. WHO IS KENA PICKED FROM RUBBISH CHUTE ONE. I THINK IS YOU.

#9 If you talk to me on msn from 8:30am till 6:00pm, and ask me to entertain you, or play some MOBWAR game thing with you on Facebook, chances are I cannot these days ok. Because (refer to point #1). JAMES GEDDIT GEDDIT.

#10 I am going to place a bet on Germany on 26/06/08. Even though they are up against Turkey, I still think Germany will win. Even though our German clients are damn fucked up and have penis-faces and talk like animated Mr Bean. Very knn one.

#11 Sin of the century to Ammar and Kiran and my boss Colin, but I have been staying clean and NOT DRINKING FOR 2 PLUS WEEKS ALREADY. I feel like Sister Mary now. Very pure and healthy. I think it has something to do with (refer to point #4). Yay. But Johnnie Walker and Coke is still shiok one ok.

This post is rather vulgar, I realise, and the twit/ah lian lingo has gone up a notch. Don't ask me why. And I am always super tired after work. Ta ma de. How ah? Actually wanted to post like up to #15 but tired one lor. Talk to you tomorrow ok. If tomorrow no update that means I am tired-er than today ok.

THE FIRST

2008-06-11T06:43:00.000-07:00

My boss is a great advisor to me.
He has told me to seize the day; take my chances;
and not sit here and wait for nothing to happen.
He told me to find out the truth when I need to.
I'm contemplating doing that;
but I'm scared.

While I talk to myself,
here is song #1 to help me pass by my emo days.

Lips Of An Angel - Hinder

2008-06-09T09:20:00.000-07:00

A close friend of mine has been talking to me.
Giving me an insight to my night-life;
my love-life;
my educational-life;
basically, enlightening me on myself.
If I didn't get the guidance,
I think I would have been a total trainwreck right now.

RESOLUTIONAVICKIERY

2008-06-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

Vickie; will do her best,
to STOP downing Whiskeys; and
Beer;
or any other alcoholic shit.

2008-06-08T03:24:00.000-07:00

Lyrics | Love Remains The Same lyrics

2008-05-28T19:41:00.001-07:00

The PEWPEW Magic

2008-05-26T20:26:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I just got news from James Kuan that he is taking part in some gaming tournament thing with Ammar, and they named the team PEWPEWPEW. After me.
Eggciting.
As much as I hate gaming and how it sucks away people's lives, I hope they win.
PEWPEWPEW GLORY.

THE MOST SHAMELESS POST EVER

2008-05-25T20:24:00.000-07:00

Because today is my birthday, I shall post herewith the most SHAMELESS post ever. Today is my birthday, and I am PRINCESS. Yessir! James and Teck Wee should know by now ah.

I got a whole list of SHIT to get with my birthday money from the parent (male one)!

1. POLAROID FILMS... and alot of it.
2. LUNCHBOX for me to bring food to office for pre-lunch.
3. Deposit the rest of the $$ with a UOB account and apply for the UOB NOW Debit Card yay. Now I can enter ARENA free everynight.

Ok update later. I'm super bored, too bored to carry on.

CHEAP WORDS

2008-05-21T07:24:00.001-07:00

Cause talk is cheap;
and words are free.
But can your action prove them;
whatever you promised;
or told;
that would be alot better.

I got low treshold for nonsense.

I WANT TO SMELL GOOD TO FEEL GOOD CAUSE I'VE BEEN HURT!

2008-05-21T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today after work, I discovered this quaint tiny little boutique which has a wide array of perfumes for both gender, at a fraction of the price! People who know me well enough will know I am a perfume freak man. So just imagine my delight when I found this shop! Only setback was that they did not have testers for about 25% of the scents there? Anyway, look what I picked up today!

BURBERRY SHEER

ESCADA PARADISE

DAVIDOFF COOLWATER GAME

For who else <3

Now now... I'm heading there on Friday again. Those on my wishlist when I get my pay:

CHANEL NO. 5

It's awesome magic juice I swear. If you think it's not nice, you must go and die NOW; or suck my toe.

ESCADA SUNSET HEAT

I think I'm gonna get the 50ml one. It's fantastic-balls-ly amazing.

And Vera Wang's PRINCESS, cause it's..PRINCESS.

BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2008-05-20T18:38:00.000-07:00

Walao I'm super bored.
Nothing to do!
Big boss in Berlin, Boss is sick, small boss has nothing for me.
Sucks.
I'm only looking forward to this Friday... and next Friday...
AND ALL SUNDAYS. CAUSE IT'S BAKING DAYS WITH HEHEHEHE DAR DAR!

2008-05-20T18:30:00.000-07:00

Shit.
I'm getting sick of the food at Gateway East's canteen for breakfast.
Either chinese noodles or tuna sandwich or sardine puffs with Pi Pa Mi.
Argh.
i need new breakfast ideas.
But I am late most of the time.
How!

:(

2008-05-19T09:32:00.001-07:00

I realised it's time for me to pack up and go.
Bye bye.
The feeling of being played is not fun ah.
Kena cheated, bastard.

ETA: Those who asked, it's nothing to do with work.

SECONDHAND SERENADE - FALL FOR YOU

2008-05-12T20:46:00.000-07:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a boy like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a boy like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Today on;

2008-05-10T10:56:00.000-07:00

Vickie has lost it all.
Her ego;
Her pride;
Her beliefs she once so strongly held on to;
Her faith.

She's smiling,
but she wished she didn't have to see some things which she did.

MY DADDY THE SUPERHERO

2008-05-08T17:46:00.000-07:00

This morning we heard this bird chirping super loud and super consistent.
My daddy went to check what was going on.
There was this mother sparrow in her nest built in a concrete wall, chirping away.
Then my daddy looked around, and he saw her sparrow baby on the concrete floor! It fell down.
So my daddy ran down to collect the baby,and took it back home to figure what was wrong with it.
Then later he realised it was unjured, and he summoned us to carry a ladder down.
So he climbed the ladder and placed the baby sparrow back into the nest with its mommy.
So heroic right.

Then later on our way to work, this huge bird flew straight into the side of my daddy's car. Thud.
My daddy and I got a shock.
And this is how the conversation went down... ...

Dad: Walao.
Me: Haha ya that bird flew straight into your car.
Dad: You all want to take this case not?
Me: HAHAHAHA.
Dad: Hit and run ah the bird. Hit my car then go away.
Me: -__- HAHAHAHAHAH AMAGAWD.

LIKE THE FIRST TIME.

2008-05-04T08:03:00.000-07:00

Honeypots;

that approximate 5 minutes outside my door just now was the best moment;
I now wish for more doses of 5 minutes outside my door.
Love you.
Kiss.
:)

DAMN IT MAX!

2008-04-30T20:50:00.000-07:00

I finally understood yesterday what you meant when you said you looked up at the right top of the screen while watching Harold & Kumar.

Damn.

Yesterday was movie date with my boyfriend who was a peanut who evolved into a juicy prune who just evolved into a Koffing (some weird Pokemon) like 2 days ago.

Movie? HAROLD & KUMAR OH LORD.
Ok John Cho is handsome and that Indian Kumar dude is just plain hilarious.

When you watch that movie and you are lead to the bottomless party, please look at anywhere else, even the ugliest face, but DO NOT STARE INTO THE SCREEN. That peen and it's huge amount of bush hair omg traumatising~~~~~

Bye.

HAHAHAHA SUCKER

2008-04-26T23:36:00.001-07:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MR JAMES KUAN WEILIANG!

Images from tonight's trash party to be uploaded soon.

MY NOSE IS LEAKING AS THIS POST IS SUMMONED.

2008-04-22T07:50:00.000-07:00

Today, I felt like shit. Worse than yesterday.
So I slept at 9:50pm, thereabout, after talking to KJ;
and then I took this tiny yellow pill for my terrible flu;
and headed to bed, all drowsy from the pill and exhausted from work.

Then just this morning, I woke up at 7;15am, instead of the usual 6;45am;
I knew I was late.
Thank god my daddy told me he could send me to work.
Hah-leh-lu-ya.
Then, there was this huge frikkin jam at Thompson,
so daddy re-routed to Bishan, and ta-dah, another dumb jam;
and so daddy tried the Ang Mo Kio route, but....#%^*&.
So we waited and waited, and finally reached work almost 1 hour late.
I sent a "liar" email to HR, telling them I wass late due to a visit to the doctor.

Then, I was almost half gone in office;
the aircondition was freezing, the computer screen was just a blur;
and the stupid "Hitler" from patents department just had to come up to 37th floor,
blasting off in his outrageously loud voice and super animated hand actions.
Here's one to you: _!_
So when I was almost gone, my boss called me down for a smoke;
and then he delegated me this project: Mass lunch for Secretary Week.
Damn. That means I have to lunch with the office bitch who basically deleted my favouritest colleague's hard efforts of scanning in 393 pages; and then not saying a single word of sorry or showing any sign of remourse. BITCH YOU SUCK MUCH GO SUCK UP SOMEMORE TO THE BOSS AH.

Then then then, Mingyong just had to come to my desk, where Safiah and I were arraging the stupid AEICs and comment that "Hitler" has a lot of hand actions and all. HAHAHAHAH this stupid boy made us laugh like fuck. And Mingyong is a guy who ALWAYS had food in his hand. Whether he is searching for a file, or typing a document. And he stays slim. Damnit.

THEN, while I was drafting a letter for my big boss Max;
I felt something. Something horrible.
I went to the ladies'.
Yes.
I was right.
It had arrived.
Hardy-ha-ha not funny you dumb red liquid thing.
And I wassn't even prepared. No Kotex or Whisper with me ok.
Thankfuylly Hidayah had, so nice. She gave me her last one, and it was this huge huge huge one. Which can fly.

Today was bad, I felt horrible physically, and so tired.
But meeting my boyfriend for dinner just made it all so much better :)

Moral of the story is, sometimes my boyfriend..
does the dumbest shit;
makes the weirdest noises;
shows me ugliest faces;
gets a tad too complacent;
and sleeps like a fucking log 3/4 of his life;

I still love him cause somehow he just makes everything alright.

2008-04-20T08:29:00.000-07:00

4 MINUTES - MADONNA / TIMBERLAND / JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE

I have no clue what shitty beige outfit Madonna is donning, but she's still one of the coolest performers out there. And Justin Timberlake, I still love him alot. I dunch know why people detest him and call him a douchebag. Who cares, he's in the music industry, not some CME educator.

SHAWTY GET LOOSE

Actually, the whole purpose behind this video of Chris Brown is not Chris Brown, but the song. it's entitled (brace yourself) SHAWTY GET LOOSE. I couldn't embed the official one, it was disallowed:( But anyhoo, Chris Brown can dance OKAY.I know somewhere out there KJ is going to kill me with a toothpick through my eye or just disown me, but this is one nigger piece of music I just love. And well,actually Chris Brown is a pulling factor. I love him too.

ALWAYS BE MY BABY

2008-04-20T08:21:00.000-07:00

Dear David Cook,

I found you one of the sexiest piece of meat alive on this Universe;
and even more so since this performance on AI (Mariah Carey week).

Suddenly the new British lawyer at my law firm is nothing.
Not even that much of an eye-candy.
Hmm. He's lost it.

DAVID COOK FTW.
He's actually the first AI contestant I hope wins the competition,since my favourite Aussie guy Michael Cook (I think) is out.

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

ALCOHOL IRKS ME

2008-04-12T07:38:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Ammar, and lesson learnt, never drink so much in such a short span of time. Even if it means it's free and yummy.

Kalua
2 mugs of beer
Bourbon coke
Rum and coke I think
2 tequilla shots
2 quick-f**k shots (courtesy of Nisaaaaaaaaa)
Vodka lime and
Vodka lime again

Walao the list looks damn short and little but then try drinking them like damn fast. Shittttttttttttt.
I was the first to leave at 3am, so paiseh.
But the blasting awesome music at PHUTURE and the alcohol, damn shiok please got so bloody high. Not drunk ok. I didn't pukeeeeeeeeeeee.

But but but
thank you dar dar :)
Hehehehehehehehehe.

I still remember the crew serving us our drinks at the counter was Ninja. Hahahahahaha damn cute. And Teck Wee has my IC and newest newest MAC lipgloss!!!! Arggghhhhhhhhhhh. And and and my OCBC card and $$$$$. Boooooooooooooooooo.

ON FRIDAY

2008-04-05T05:46:00.000-07:00

I realised that ... ...

When your heart hurts
You don't get pampered
You are dealing with work but are so exhausted
Shit happens
You get called a bitch by someone you thought was everything
And you are getting richer by the moment

the only thing left to do is splurge ALOT on meaningless stuff which you already have at home, like..

A bagful of M.A.C cosmetics
and a whole lot of random shit like shorts, dresses and stuff;
and you skip dinner without feeling hungry,
and then you reach home and sleep.

I could just get used to this kinda life. At least it keeps you happy for a while and numbs you. Now I can't wait to get fuckingly wasted and drunk on Friday.

ABOUT YOU NOW

2008-04-03T20:14:00.000-07:00

It was so easy that night,
Should have been strong, yeah I lied,
Nobody gets me like you,
Couldn't keep hold of you then,
How could I know what you meant,
There was nothing to compare to

I know everything changes,
All the cities and places,
But I know how I feel about you,

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

All that it takes one more chance,
Don't let our last kiss be our last,
Give me tonight and I'll show you

I know everything changes,
I don't care where it takes us,
'Cus I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

Not a day pass me by,
Not a day pass me by,
When I don't think about you,
And there's no moving on,
'Cus I know your the one,
And I can't be without you

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

Can we bring yesterday back around,
'Cus I know how I feel about you now,
I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down,
But I know how I feel about you now

But I know how I feel about you now

Yes I know how I feel about you now

2008-04-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

My boss is the coolest shit ever.
Colin, not Max.

Colin looks at me.
Gives me the look, and the head-tilt, telling me to go down for a "break".
We head down to do our usual stuff.

Me: so last Fri did you go meet the (client's name) people?
Colin: no. What was I doing last Friday? Let me think.
Me: haha.
Colin: wait let me think, did I get drunk last Friday?
ME: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I aspire to be like my boss in future.

14 days worth of money.

2008-03-31T07:54:00.000-07:00

Whee my first pay cheque came in! Woohoo.
Which means I have $$ to save into my account;
and which means I can go for sheesha with Adibah;
and which means I can afford to go for Ammar's birthday bash at Phuture;
and which means I can buy more frozen yoghurt! This time I'm going for grape flavour ok. No more peach.

Oh ya love you.

$10 Dinner + alot of fun

2008-03-31T07:48:00.000-07:00

Eeeeschk.
Steamboat dinner was great, that dumb bull-ass game 55 was even better.
It was the dope.
Hah, with jerks like James,his Indo girl Nezziepoo, funny people like Zhen Lin and Teck Wee, and of course the boy.
And the sharp-ended-chopstick-poke-the-fishball-trick, and forcing all the poked fishballs unto Teck Wee's bowl. All thanks to James for starting it ah. Oh and we wasted like 1 hour plus watching this lame horror movie, 13 Ghosts on HBO. Hmmm. The first time I watched it I was mortified.

And for shit you asked us to bring the Contreau there. But thanks ok! I still owe you $10.

2008-03-25T09:12:00.001-07:00

NOTE TO SELF : BUY A BOX BIG ENOUGH FOR 10 CAPSULES.

2008-03-24T08:41:00.001-07:00

*Phone rings continuously*

T'was 4:45pm thereabout, everyone was busy drafting bills, documents, redacting evidence, etc. No one had bothered to answer the loathesome phone which was ringing on non-stop, until the office boy with the hearing aid decided to pick up the phone. He answered the phone, tried his best to hold a decent speech with the caller, but it was nevertheless a bit tough.

Estee turns to Fir, and speaks to him in Malay. Estee then turns to me, and says: I was telling him, later confirm kena fucked by Max one. We all not dumb but we refuse to answer the call.

Max walks out. To our desks, yes, where Estee, Fir and I were seated. He fucks us up gently with a smile, and walks away. We look at each other, giving the understood smile, have a little giggle, ad get back to our mundane work.

Yes, that's how we get through the day.

NUMB

2008-03-24T08:36:00.000-07:00

Today, the rain poured, it was chilling, and it was freezing in the bus ride home. Goosebumps were popping on my skin; but I was feeling normal, wasn't shivering, wasn't feeling uncomfortable. I felt normal, like room temperature, with the sun shining through the window.

Today, work was mundane; it was aching my back, and it was tedious and tiring. I wasn't complaining; I felt happy, it took me away from distractions. I feel happy doing a job I loathe.

Today, I boarded a bus home, which was filled with the kind of people I hated (no elaboration to protect myself); instead of glancing at them with despise, I decided to sit in the corner of the 4-seat cluster, with 3 of such people surrounding me. I did not feel hate, or smirk, or walk away, I just felt happy I got a seat.

Today, I decided that my heart will not hurt even when it should hurt the most, it will not beat for anything other than life. Today, I became the numb, cold human being I loathed; and I think it might take a long time before I am Vickie again.

23 / 03 / 08

2008-03-23T00:05:00.000-07:00

If it sets them free into a land of happier moments;
let them go.

Sometimes, if you're not told everything;
then just wish you are being told the truth in what you have been told.

True love is something that cannot be achieved without suffering.
-Quoted from Amanda's blog. Very true.

Do I make sense?

190308, THE 6TH

2008-03-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

Yes, I've officially started working as a Paralegal @ Gateway Law Corporation, and 3 days into my new job, I took 2 days' leave for a very very important date made long ago. The most exciting date ever, I think. What with the preparation of lunch (Nutella and ham sandwhich, and boyfriend cooked some seaweed chicken! Good job boy.), and the bottle of Bailey's, and packing of the bag and blah blah blah.

RAINY DAY PICTURE

THE HUT, TUAS A @ COSTA SANDS

TINY BOY IN THE TINY HUT

HAPPY PEOPLE ON A SUNNY DAY

And so we headed to Sentosa on our getaway. THE STUPID RAIN REFUSED TO GTFO, so we had to shell up inside the 4-bed tiny hut. Really tiny place with tiny lights and tiny shelves, but still very cosy.

Went for night adventures! With the skyride (no luge cause I was in a dress), camwhoring at the fountain-princessy place, walking around under the pretty lights and finally buying food from 7-11, with the crazy China bitch refusing to change our BIG GULP. *slap*

Despite the countless head hits on the bunk beds, smokiing in the room thus causing the overboard smoky smell, and the super noisy and irritating indian bitches who were making too much noise outside our room and who also got so excited cause they were sneaking into clubx, and and the super cold water during bath time, it was still SPANKING AWESOME.THANK YOU.

ILU
Another one to come soon, kay? For Underwater World, hee.

ME: Eh! Let's go Underwaterworld! Damn long never go liao, there can touch the stingray one!

BOYFRIEND: I want to eat the stingray, remind me of Chong Pang, at Winsor's there.

ME: -________________-

Oh oh oh, stop acting cute ah.

IMCONFUSED

2008-03-12T12:33:00.001-07:00

I didn't get PWC for my internship, and that sucks. I was hopeful for it ok, if what Mr Ferlin told me was true. I don't wish to be complacent, but I honestly think I missed the mark by a teeny wee bit.

Argh.

2008-03-06T23:32:00.000-08:00

We Might As Well Be Strangers - Keane

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world

We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in another time

We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers

For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now

For all I know

This song shall be dedicated and shared with Zhenlin and Teck Wee, and maybe James.
HAHAHAHAHA.

2008-03-06T11:26:00.001-08:00

I have a plan.

To prepare all my resumes by this weekend
To prepare all documents and stuff by this weekend
To send them out first thing Monday morning
To probably get another piercing
To not think negatively about funds
To go all out until I'm dead exhausted to get the funds
To not be the fucking dumb fool again.

SHEENA I'M DOING IT

2008-03-06T07:05:00.001-08:00

Sheena says:
haiyoh

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Seriously walao.

COPELAND'S LOVE

2008-03-05T10:41:00.000-08:00

Because it's one of your favourite bands,
and the song says alot.

PS I LOVE YOU

2008-03-04T10:58:00.001-08:00

I should have been warned, that it was going to be teary from beginning to end. Or maybe it's just me, cause KJ seemed cool. Hmm. Hilary Swank is awesome, Gerard Butler is still man, and Kathy Bates was the best. No, Harry Connick Jr was. Amazing show.

I wished I had Kathy Bate's character installed somewhere in my family. Perservering and encouraging, and so, so independent.

A SPECIAL MENTION TO:

2008-03-04T10:35:00.000-08:00

Aside from the usual suspects, and in alphabetical order,

EUNICE WONG / MRS WONG
Thank you for always listening to me whine/complain/bawl my eyes out. And thank you for always speaking so fast, sometimes I really do get lost in your words. But still, thanks. I think without you (and Teck Wee - see below), I would have emo-ed until don't know where already.

SHARYL YEO
Thank you for always being the kanchiong nonya 1/2 in Year 3, always pushing and motivating me to work harder. I think it would have been terribly difficult to survive this semester without all your help, especially after the tragedy of IP project and Probate project.I will always look back and remember those days. So NS brotherhood right. I look forward to the day we are joint together as the nonya duo in Sheffield, UK.

SERENA WONG
Even though we weren't ever that close, I must still thank you for all your help and especially welcoming me to your place for food (alot) and games and MAHJONG. Thank you for being one of the 3 shifus who taught me and relived my memory of the game. I shall look forward to more rounds, maybe 7 x 7 = 49 rounds! And you and Sharyl don't so aggressive to each other ah, Sheena and I nervous. Will anyhow PONG one.

LIM TECK WEE
Woah Teck Wee, where do I start. Still remember you as the "cooler" DHL geeks who stayed back in ILaw to play games instead of mugging your balls out. Kuddos. How we met? Through gaming I guess. Thank you for always letting us call you "ugly", it's probably the only way we feel better about ourselves. But maybe it's the truth ah, and the truth hurts. HAHAHAHA. But on a serious note, I must thank you for listening to my stories, and hear me whine and complain and being emo to the lowest point, where the only way for me is to head up. How very true man. It's great to have someone hear me out, especially since you've been through the emo stage as well. Thank you for all your help and advise and guidance, I will defintely remember them for a long time and I hope you'll still stick around for more of my cries for help! And, I will NEVER EVER forget that night on MSN when you plucked up your courage to call me, BFF :)HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. BFF.

Best Regards
Vickie

OLD SKOOL NOSTALGIC LOVE

2008-03-02T10:43:00.000-08:00

After reading the countless "this is my last day/I-have-graduated" posts, I've decided to abide by the "monkey see monkey do" saying, and post this post as bravely as I can.

I enjoyed my three years, was full of emotions, with a capital F and a capital E. All the laughter from the dumb-ass lame jokes, tears from the poorly done projects, and anger from the shitty groupmates. Nevertheless it was a good stint.

So now, I'm leaving this place which I call my haven with..

1. A boyfriend I never thought I would have; if you need to know, I detested him in year 1 because he was so effing black-emo and step cool with the long coloured hair and giant headphone, and never forgetting how I used to tell myself I wouldn't date an Ah Beng

2. A lifelong friend I never thought I would gain; if you need to know she is part Indian (shocking!) part Chinese. I still remember her hating me for being the snobbish bitch and I,the image of her coming into the lecture theatres with a bandaged arm. She was seated diagonally behind me.

3. A close friend I never thought I would get acquainted with; he is too nice to believe such a person actually exists. The first words I said to him was, "Oh, you are that scum." Well, I'm sorry for saying that, you are obviously one of the best out there.

4. Memories with my favourite lecturers, Mr Chng and Mr Ferlin namely, for all their super "slap-in-the-face" jokes, and "get out of the class, you're late" rules, and also just for imparting their wisdom and skills to us. Thank you.

I will always remember iLaw Chambers, LegalLab which was always stuffed with non-law students, the hidden smoking spots, the reservoir, and the lovely little canteens.

THANK YOU TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC.
TEMASEK'S ME, TEMASEK'S YOU... ...

2008-03-02T03:30:00.000-08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY FRUSTRATED
FUCKING ANGRY
AND GODDAMNIT DISAPPOINTED.

I AM AN ANGSTY TEEN.

I AM TIRED OF WAITING FOR THINGS TO HAPPEN
I MUST TAKE THINGS INTO MY CONTROL;
TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE.

I DON'T KNOW

2008-03-01T10:30:00.000-08:00

Exams are finally done and over with
but the happiness is short-lived.
Sure, I was elated, shouting with Sharyl and squealing like little girls.
After that I wasn't too sure.

Everyone headed out for big celebration parties,
I wasn invited, on both nights;
Friday with Teck and James and Saturday with Ammar and gang,
but I just didn't have the mood for anything like that anymore.

What's going on, what's going on?
I just know I'm running out of time,
September or May, and then September again, I don't know.

I don't know what to do from here,
where to go, how to do it.
I have nothing to expect;
nothing to look forward to;
nothing to be happy about.
I don't know anything anymore.

I'm lost.
I'm scared to even talk to some people close to me;
not to say get close to them, ever again.

IN 12 HOURS' TIME... ...

2008-02-28T07:51:00.000-08:00

I will not be completely but ony temporarily free from the life I actually enjoy, one at TP with my close friends and the familiar surroundings -ILaw Chambers, classroom 04-05, level 6 for project submissions and even the humble little toilets tucked away at every nook and corner.

But at the same time, I will be able to pursue further pastures, where I can graze my sheeps instead of grazing the kind you count to sleep. I will be able to embark on my challenge for $100,000 within 6 months with Sheena (and Winsor?); I will have all the time in the world to watch FRIENDS, I will have all the freedom to do girly-stuff like shopping e-commercely, doing my nails, and going for facials. But most importantly, I will be able to treat the people around me nicely, at least to those close to my heart.

In 12 hours' time, I will submit my entire fate to Mr Mathavan. But I will never sell my soul to him. So. Not. Worth. It.

250208

2008-02-25T09:10:00.000-08:00

I don't know what I want
But I do know what I shouldn't want.

PS: Sorry Teck had to quote from you.

EH SHEENA!

2008-02-23T21:42:00.000-08:00

I just woke up from a dream, a rather pleasant one surprisingly.

If you remember, I'm a sucker for FRIENDS, and in most of the 10 seasons, Joey and Chandler always have this ultimately strong friendship, with this couple of lounge chairs.

My dream was, Sheena, when we are in UK, we shall rent our own apartment, and do up our room in whatever ways we want (I call Sharyl's princess-style!), and then we will go scouse for a couple of leather lounge seats, placed strategically in front of our TV set, where we will have buckets of beer and chilled coffee with tons of junk food, all placed within our reach (so we don't have to get up).

And then if Winsor and KJ come over to the UK, they shall rent an apartment opposite ours (because ours will be too small - aside from KJ, we aren't very small people, and we are very messy people with alot of clutter)and it would be so awesomeeeeeeeee.

Yes, that's the dream and I WANT TO LIVE IT.

RANDOM

2008-02-22T10:22:00.000-08:00

Don't even get me started on the bloody TWP paper.
There goes my A.
Nothing lower than a B kkkkk Mr Mat.

Sent the boy to Pasir Ris for his family chalet thingy.
So cool right. Family gathering of the Kweks.
Then then then James, Teck Wee and I headed to White Sands.
Sakae Sushi for like very small portions of food.
Then Jame's orange coloured chicken wing
Then to Teck's home, where we bought like Twisties and weird tasting caramel icecream and super-sweet bubble tea. Oh and like an entire Honey Glazed roast chicken. Hahahahaha pigs I know.

Damn fun k.
What with Teck Wee's secret stash in the lower drawer
and his super spacious house.
James and I have planned to hold a trash party at Teck's place soon, with the make-out room, smoking corner and we even decided on a space for Ammar to lie, puke and sleep.

Awesome.
So fun.
Okay bye.

Oh and not forgetting, I came home to this:-

N81 IN BLUE AND BLACK
Now I can watch Spice Girls while on 969 :)
Thanks dad.

DEAR SHARYL......

2008-02-21T08:02:00.000-08:00

Despite the shitty B+ for TWP (pronounced as twerp)
and the shitty B for IP
(I mention these 2 exclusively cause they were the ones which made us suffer together and brought us much pain and misery)
I still strongly believe that you can do it.
I really do.
So push one, like what you told me,it's just a matter of 1 more week.

Yours faithfully
Vickie

CHRIS BROWN-WITH YOU

2008-02-20T10:06:00.001-08:00

I LOVE THIS.

THIS IS TO THE THREE OF US

2008-02-20T09:12:00.001-08:00

From playful little freshies
who played pool and whatsnot everyday
We have bloomed into mature students (or at least I think)
Planning our roads ahead
and getting what we want

Congrats to Shih Ying, on Leeds and Leceister
Congrats to Sheena, on Manchester
Congrats to me, on Sheffield.
We're on our way to Uttra & Tan LLC.

Sheena, next step is sponsorship.
We shall meet in uk.

2008-02-19T09:12:00.000-08:00

Sigh.
I feel like such a letdown after Monday.
I wish I could be a better person to you.
I hope I can.
I don't even feel good about myself right now.
I want things to get better.
I will make it better.

The roses have died :(
But I hope the love in you is still alive.
Thank you for everything.
ILU.

INDEPENDENCE

2008-02-17T00:51:00.001-08:00

Don't count on it;
not on anything;
not on anyone.

What's the point?
Just do it yourself.

I must start telling this to myself every now and then.

THANK YOU.

2008-02-16T09:15:00.001-08:00

I literally pushed zero today,
so big thanks to Sharyl, Serena, Debby,Rachel, Amanda and Clarissa, plus Teck Wee for all the fun; and a big bear hug and much kudos to Sheena for all your listening and help.

I need to sleep desperately,
and I resove not to wake up unless it's past the 14th hour.

I STILL GOT AN ANG PAO

2008-02-16T08:05:00.000-08:00

Thanks Sharyl, my fellow nonya for the invitation to your ultra-princessy place. I love it. I shall work hard as a lawyer so I can make my future apartment in the same style. With hello kitty and disney princesses stuck allover.

I loved the gambling. What with Rachel and her streak of 21 points, and Sharyl with her mommy's backup, and Debby with her ultimate $4 bet. Oh oh oh, the best part was I found my best partner in banker-for-blackjack; Teck Wee. Okay I think we are either the Power Duo, or the Gruesome Twosome.We either win alot, or lose alot, like seriously alot, to a point of desperation where Teck Wee was about to gamble his pants away or sell himself in Geylang.

Anyway, it was awesome fun, much needed before the final exams kick in.
Good luck everyone. Well, not all.

TAGGED

2008-02-13T08:58:00.000-08:00

Name: Vickie

D.O.B: 26 May 1988

Current Status: ihaveaboyfriendandheisKJ.

Eye Colour: brown, acording to KJ.

Hair Colour: black with natural brown tints.

Righty Or Lefty: Righty

Zodiac Sign: Gemini.

Part 2 : On The Inside

Your heritage: Pop = chinese with a hint of Peranakan blood, Momsiepoo = Chinese

Your fears: Losing important stuff, and no Law school to go to :(

Your weakness: The smell on my boyfriend's face and shirt and Sheena's humour.

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Your thoughts 1st waking up: Hmm will KJ go to school? Probably late again.

Your Bedtime: 2am, earlies these days.

Your most missed memory: Chilling with Adibah.

Part 4: Your Pick

Pepsi Or Coke: Coke FTW

MacDonald's Or Burger King: MacDonald's. Better fries.

Single Or Group Dates: Single or double is fine.

Adidas Or Nike: Adidas ORIGINAL.

Lipton Tea Or Nestea: Lipton Tea

Chocolate Or Vanilla: Vanilla

Cappuccino Or Coffee: both.

Part 5: Do You?

Smoke: The occasional fag is mandatory.

Curse: FUCK.

Drink: Yes please.

Part 6: In the past month

Drank Alcohol: Yes

Gone to the mall: Yes

Been on stage: nuh.

Eaten Sushi: No I think.

Dyed hair: No. I love my thick luscious locks with split ends.

Part 7: Have You Ever?

Played a stripping game: Almost.

Changed who you were to fit in: Have I?

Part 8: Age

You are hoping to be married: Erh.

Part 9: In a Guy Or Girl

Best Guy Eye Colour: Brown

Hair colour: Black or brown. Must see his complexion mah. Imagine black hair on a black guy, or blonde on a chinese.

Short Or Long Hair: Short.

Part 10: What were you doing?

1 min ago: Talking to Teck Wee.

1 hour ago: Screaming and staring at my UCAS Track.

1 mth ago: Erh. I would use this part of my memory to remember stuff like when a LA is needed.

1 yr ago: Being emo.

Part 11: Finish the sentence.

Love: is KJ. Oh god so mush I need to slap myself.

Feel: A pounding headache right now.

Miss: hanging out with Adibah.

Hate: my pounding headache. And sore throat.

Need: Sleep. Much.

Part 12: Tag 5 people!
My favourite part!

1. KJ
2. Sheena - yes, I like to torture you like that. Cheap thrill.
3. Teck Wee- because it's so you.
4. Sharyl. Because you are nonya.
5. I got no friends and am emo like Austin.

WHEE!

2008-02-13T07:19:00.000-08:00

IMSOFUCKINGAWESOMELYHAPPY RIGHT NOW
OH LORD I NEED TO BREATHE
AND SHEENA KNOWS THAT
CAUSE SHE WAS THE FIRST I CALLED
TO DELIVER THE GOOD NEWS
OMGOMGOMGOMG

I WANT TO GO WATCH SWEENEY TODDD WITH MAX
I WANT TO GO DO MY ARBITRATION TEST NOW EVEN THOUGH I HAVEN'T STUDIED FOR IT
I WANT TO RAP LIKE A NIGGER
I WANT TO JUST SCREAM!
AND KJ I LOVE YOU HAHAHAHA YES I DO

OMG YOU CAN JUST FEEL MY EXCITEMENT
OMG AND TOMORROW'S VALENTINE'S AWESOME SHIT

A

<3

2008-02-11T06:03:00.000-08:00

And then it's like everyday you wake up
And go about your usual routine
And you just cannot believe that you have such a wonderful person in love with you.
And then when you see that person, you just can't believe it's him right beside you.

Sheena this is not mush.
This is the truth!!!!!!!

CJ-7

2008-02-11T05:48:00.000-08:00

Date with the boy!
Catched the movie, CJ7.
So cute can, the alien, and and and
the small boy can darn well act.
I'm in love with him.
Reminds me of a mini Aaron Kwok, and KJ says it looks like KC.
Hee ya damn true.

Then then then
we roamed around and shopped a bit.
Managed to chromed/cromped/crommed (sp??!) like $20 red shoes, and like $30-for-2 tunics in awesome spanking bright pink and bluish purple, and like $5 good reads from Carrefour. Seriously cool books, one of a true crime, and the other of real stories of war people or something.
And and and the dinner was great
Just PASTA MANIA, but it was with the boy so therefore awesome!

Then then then we made fun of bengs in skinny jeans
and and and then we headed home.
Okay I'm bored and abit sleepy, and he's DOTA-ing.
Awesome.

Gawdness can you just hear my excitement hehehehehehehe.

HUH I DID SO BADLY?

2008-02-11T05:43:00.000-08:00

Received my test paper of my favouritest paper today
COMMERCIAL TRANSACTION
Walao major letdown la Vickie
29/40 only.
Others did so well, you do until like this.
But I don't get it.
I did read up for it okay.
1 or 2 days before the test.
Damn nvm so we went for a smoke. Jo, dar dar and I.

And then....
Mr Looi goes through the MCQs.
OH LORD THERE IS JUSTICE AFTERALL.
He marked 2 of my questions wrongly.
I've redemmed 2 more marks.
31/40 now.
BUT BUT BUT I need 1 more mark to make it an A.
Yes, see, humans never contented with what they have.
Give them an inch, they want a yard.
So my honourary and beloved friend, Joseph
(yes, the one my mommy says is good looking)
helps me go through the paper, and approaches Mr Looi...
and manages to chrome/chromb/cromp(sp?!) another mark for me
32/40 YESSIR HERE'S A TOAST TO MY A!!!!!!!
THANK YOU JOSEPH SMILEY FACE FOR YOU :)

I shall work harder,
for myself, my university entries, and for the boy and for Joseph.
And my mommy and daddy.

CHU SAN

2008-02-09T08:50:00.000-08:00

They came two by two..

KJ + me = US!
Winsor + Eunice = The Wongs
James + Inez = The cross cultural couple
Sharyl + Shiying = The siao zhar bors
Max + Austin = Mex
Halim + Joseph = The BFFs
Zhenlin + Teck Wee = The ambiguous couple
Ammar = 2 persons

They couldn't make it..

KJ's darling = Marcus
Our favourite designated driver = Alvin fatso
Our bestest slacker who comes to school = Gerard
The smart mat = Ridhwan

Nevertheless, it was a great gathering
With tons of food and drinks and the occasional smoke breaks, and the gambling and shocking speed game thingamajig.

OH YUH AND THE CONTROVERSIAL MOMENTS..
My mom says Teck Wee looks good, like some HK movie star; and that Joseph looked very handsome and pleasant and WELL-MANNERED.
HAHAHAHA DAMN THE IRONY OF IT ALL.
I shall forgive her, as she had some alcohol.

And I'm so darn glad things went well
with the parents and KJ.
SO WELL.
YAY!
Thanks to the parents for cooking and preparing so much stuff
and to the boy for coming in so early!
LOVE YOU ALL MANY MANY WORXZXZXZXZ.
Will post the group pic up soon (hint.: my nonya girl!!!)

THE MAT ROCKER WATCH

2008-02-07T06:30:00.001-08:00

Even though it's black leather (i prefer brown, so natural!)
And so bloody wide (too wide for a skinny skinny wrist)
I decided to get it.
Yes, I like to surprise him like that.

It actually looks damn good.
Heeh.

MY FELLOW NONYA

2008-02-05T07:49:00.001-08:00

I MISS
SHARYL YEO'S
FROWN.

HILARY SWANK STARS IN IT

2008-02-05T07:47:00.000-08:00

Yayyyy.
I'm going to watch P.S I LOVE YOU soon
with who else;
but the one I say to, "P.S, I LOVE YOU".

NO ONE ELSE DISTURBS US ON THAT DAY
OR I WILL TAKE MY STILETTO AND STAB YOU.

PROJECT RAMPAGE

2008-02-04T06:44:00.000-08:00

In the words of the wise old(er) Sheena,

"We never learn."

I'm thinking, yea, but maybe we don't even have the time to learn to do things right. Oh yes, Mr Mathavan is sooooooo anal over time. Damnit.

EMOTIONS ARE A HARD THING TO DESCRIBE

2008-02-02T05:07:00.000-08:00

I don't want to be demanding
I don't want to be pissed
I don't want to be anal
I just want to be happy
I just want to enjoy now
I hope it's not too much to ask for in myself
But sometimes things get a little overboard doesn't it.

I never knew it would hit so hard
Never did in the past
until I realised how important a person can mean to me.
I guess most people feel this way
Again, back to the old saying
You don't know what you've got until you've lost it,or something like that.
I didn't lose anything, though.
I'm still holding on.
We're still going strong, I guess.

I still remember the promise once made
I definitely hope you do
It is such a nice memory
And I wish it would come true.

On a sidenote, I guess I did ok for TWP thus far.
I need inspiration, so I can work harder
for at least a 90 for probate project, right Sharyl?

FINDING COMFORT IN PAIN?

2008-01-31T07:33:00.000-08:00

The reality of fairytales are fucking painful.

I'm pushing zero
Where is my hero.

A WALK TO REMEMBER......

2008-01-28T21:24:00.000-08:00

One of the movies that made me tear abit but not cry.

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, alright
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
in places no one will find

I love Mandy Moore
and this song.
ALOT.
Oh oh and there's Shane West.
Alright IP overload brings out the teeny booper girl in me.
Great.

MUSH POST #X

2008-01-28T09:11:00.000-08:00

I want to play Guitar Hero please. 1 2 and 3.
Whee.
And then I want to splurge alot when I go shopping this Friday.
I want to find stuff
which are ugly and nice at the same time.

Today, after the misfortune of the careless mistakes in CT paper,
we went for lunch with the bunch,
and then we lied on my bed and chilled.
Then we went for dinner together
The day ended with a kiss,
And then I saw him off the train.
I love this kind of life.

He's still asleep.
:(
I have the sudden urge to speak to him.
For the fun of it.
Even if it means making random noises into the phone
and hearing his laughter, whether forced or not.
Heh.

EDIT:
**deleted**

*Plays random boyband mush love song*